i dont know what the fucking hell is wrong with my system.

im having this unusual pains in my tummy. i never have experienced like this before. its really strange. it was about 1.00 in the morning when i just finished my dinner. then, i started to have this weird pains in my tummy. i complained to Mom, and as usual, she just ignored me. i complained again. this time, she just advised me to take the minyak and urut sendiri. what the fucking hell?!??!?! she handed me the bottle, but i just put it aside. she then left me alone in her room and went out to the living room. i kept tossing and turning, crying in pain too. i just cant bear it anymore. its too painful.

i went to my room. i wanted to SMS him but im afraid. i know i shouldnt harass him anymore. i should just leave him alone. but in this situation, i really needed someone. you see, not even my Mom bothered to help me or something.

i heard Mom told Dad about me. tears started to well up. i dont know why i was crying. i cried more. Dad came into my room and asked me questions. later, Mom came into my room and she urut my tummy. then, she made me drink this organic-stuff drink. i just drank it, for my own goodness. heh. wells, its somekind like a jelly thingy drink. lol.

i SMS-ed him. i cried. and i fell asleep.

the next day, i had gastric. it was bad. i started to feel like throwing up. i even had strange headaches. it was really bad.

i cant stand it any longer. seriously.

oh, why must You make me sick? tak cukup ke die sakitkan aku.