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Wednesday, December 28, 2005  

Wednesday 28 December 2005

oh wells, i didnt get a very good rest. i slept right after i finished updating my blog last night and woke up at around 11pm. id got up and studied for my Footdrill Theory test today and ironed my SRCY uniform and did some necessary stuffs. i tried to go back to sleep again at 4am but i just couldnt close my eyes. instead, i cried for a bloody whole of two hours as i was listening to some Malay jiwangz songs (which i got from him).

i recalled back on what happened yesterday the way i reacted in front of him. i terkenang all those sweet memories about us. im trying my best to erase him from my mind but i cant. i just cant forget him. im trying at my very best, but somehow, he's always in my heart- and my mind too. oh, somebody, pleaaaaaaaaaase help me!

honestly lah eh, i still love him. i still miss him like how i used to. ah, im just soooo damn bloody dumb lah to think about him, right?

i know. chances of getting back together are very very very very low. perhaps, i dont think we will ever going to be back like before. but why?

i dont know.

dont ask me.

it was just so perfect. having 5 hours of sleep in two days. how am i going to manage on this?

i dont know.

okay. i didnt smoke this morning. coz tak sempat lah. dah lambat liao. kalo sempat, memang dah isap pun. lol. lagi2 smalam member kasi sey.

oh yes, i met my long-time-no-see good friend from Qihua yesterday in the bus. We had been friends since kindergarten and i still remembered he gave me 'something' coz he used to like me when we were in K2. haha. it was really funny back then.

but now, we've grown up. no more of such things anymore. lol.

we chatted for a couple of minutes. he said he had heard lotsa stories about me from his godsister. his godsister happens to be my senior in my school.

i was really taken aback when he told me what S**** (name shall not be revealed), his godsister, has been gossiping about me behind my back. whaddaheck?!?!?!

"kalo tak hepi, bole bobal face-to-face per. takyah nak bobal blakang orang lah kan sial."



back about the camp.

we had our uniform inspection first. and guess what? i pass out.

i couldnt believe myself that i pass out. the Ma'am was taking such a long time inspecting our uniforms. at first, i started to feel like vommiting and my stomach hurts. i told Shaqilah that i was not okay (even though i know we're not supposed to talk when we're in the squad). i tried to tahan. then, i started seeing black polka dots. i could see Aziemah was standing in front of the cadet next to me. and suddenly i could see nothing except darkness. i heard Aziemah said something. probably talking to me i guess.

i could hear the seniors asking me to fall out. they carried me to a bench. pastu baru i sedar. i could open my eyes and my vision came back to normal.

and i cried.

it was extremely hurting me. i cant tahan liao. i didnt know what to do. i cried and cried, like a baby. haha. i know this sounds so childish of me. lol.

then something struck in my mind. oh yes, my medicines. i need them. but no way, i cant. ive taken them right before i fall in. i think its all because of the medicines which made me pass out or lack of rest or that i didnt eat anything since last night i got home. *whatever* (and i didnt take my medicines anymore throughtout the camp. im afraid i gonna pass out again. haha.)

the seniors gave me Milo and bread. i felt like vommiting but i just tahan jer lahhhh.

then we had our Footdrill Theory Test. i was really confident that i gonna get full marks. lol.

we had lunch. i gave the chicken to Izyan and threw my lunch away. i couldnt eat. there's no point if i force myself to eat. nanti pun i vomit jugak perrrr. menyeksakan aku adalah.

after lunch we had some more trainings on Footdrill. i tried my best to keep myself steady, and i made it. but then, i still had to fall out and rest for a while then fall in again. haiyahhhh.

then we had our Footdrill Practical Test. i did some mistakes. it was just so silly of me. but i couldnt really blame myself for that. ive got to blame this fucking sickness in me.

and my boots were too tight. my toes really hurt. badly.

and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, guess what? i passed my Footdrill Proficiency Test despite of those halangans that i faced throughout the Test! i was so happy. there's only 6 ppl (including me) who passed the Test. 11ppl failed the test. it was really bad, aight?

uh. so pastu kite pon main2 arh. played Monkey lah, Ice & Water etc. sume bdk kecik nye main2. haha. tapi best arh. kite best2 main2 while the failures kene re-test lagi. haha. kesian dorang. and i was bullied by Sir and the seniors. lol. mentang2 aku sec1 beh nak buli aku sakkkk. takper takper. next yr dah sec 2. hahaha.

crapping.

after the camp ended at 6.00pm, Shaqilah and 3 seniors, plus me lepak2 kat 137. i needed to meet Abg Andin. i need to get a new number. getting a new number kene register per skrg. register kene ade IC. then i dont have leh.

and something that i HATED happened. i hate it. terus tak jadi nak get a new number with Andin's help.

in the end, Aisyah came to the rescue. hurhur. used her IC to register. and yay, finally, ive got a new number!!! lol.

so, i wont be using the old number (81591357) anymore. dont SMS or call that number anymore uh kay. haha. lgpn February dah expired sak. lol.

if u want my number, ask me personally. thank you. =))

oh yes, when kite nga lepak kat 137, two policemen came to us. aisyah and me baru jer nak ciao gi kedai pastu the police suro go back tmpt tadi. wth. they asked us a few questions. actually, they had been watching us since kite duduk lepak sak. i was really afraid. seram sak kalo dorang nak check our bags. haha. ade illegal stuff in my bag sia. ROKOK! kalo dorang nak check our bags, tak tau uh nak ckp ape sey. surrender jer uh. takkan nak tipu plak kan. lol.

but lucky the policemen didnt check our bags. phew~. he asked for our Ez-Link/IC. he jotted down some stuffs on his notebook. then he asked us to write down our names, IC numbers and addresses. urgh. damnit. dorang tgk kiteorg semcm sak.

and they finally went off at 6.45pm.

went back home at around 7.30pm and reached home at 8.30pm. haha. couldnt believe it that the journey back home took me an hour siaaa. lol.

im really fatigued now. i really NEED a very good night sleep.


so, good night! =))


 

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