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today was suck.
Hazilah and me went to school quite early. it was only 6.30am when we reached school. bored, we went out of school (and it was still very dark) and met Shaqilah and went back to school and changed into our uniforms.
wells, this year's Total Defence Day was quite different compared to last year.
the Uniform Groups had to wear their uniforms through out the whole day. till they finished school. last year we didn't have to.
there was electricity; air-cons, fans, light etc. there wasn't any electricity last year.
the food was different. last year we had biscuits and bananas but this time round, we had breads and apples.
i was unwell through out the day in school. sickening man.
and plus, i've got to see the doctor this afternoon, but somehow, Dad cancelled the appointment. sighh.
my friends and i went to hang around for awhile at 137 and had lunch there. but i spent the whole afternoon talking to Izzati and Farhanah instead of them. hehe. hope they're not mad with me. =)
and i was fuckingly hurt and stumped and appalled when i saw him, sitting next to his crush. perhaps, his girlfriend. i was like... what the fuck?!?! they saw me, and the fucking girl tried to move a lil' away from him. eh, u don't have to move ur bloody arse lah. i've seen it liao. and the fucker was like, smiling all the way. what, puas sakitkan hati aku? eh, gie mati lahhh.
we broke up coz of this bloody stupid slutish third party; which happened to be that Slut. she looks really like a fugly slut to me. pompan desperate sak. takde jantan lain per ko nak tackle, matair org jugak ko nak sak. you knew that i was his girlfriend and he was my boyfriend. i knew i neglected him just a few days before we broke up, and you were there for him. but, didn't you know that he was mine then? you should have at least respect us, and our relationship. instead, you went on flirting with him. just the way you do for other guys. budak sec 1 sound stead pun ko amek. desperate nak boyfriend sangat per. aiyohh. kalo jambu takpe lah jugak. nie... tsk tsk. nenek aku lagi jambu lah.
but i don't really prove that Fugly Slut is wrong. my ex-boyfriend was wrong too. he knew that his Good Friend has a big crush on that Fugly Slut all this while yet he can still flirt around and try to tackle this Fugly Slut right in front of Him. what kind of friend is he huh? kawan makan kawan sak. tsk tsk.
the Fucker is really a hypocrite. really. just last two nights when we talked on the phone, he said he still love me but he can still adore and flirt with Fugly Slut. astagha... God knows everything kay. he is seriously a masquerader.
you know how much i loathe the mats aight. wells, i think i'm starting to loathe him coz he looks like one. yucks. he wanna act like some kind of a stupid gothic-type of person (which he just doesn't suit with it) but when he goes out, he dresses himself like a mat-tepi-jalan. i've been wanting to tell him this but i'm afraid that i'll hurt him or anything. but after this, i don't care anymore. hurt ke tak hurt mcm aku nye problem. lek sua. plus, he has been hurting me damn much sampaikan kesakitan itu tak terasa. really. i don't feel too hurt after what i've seen at the bus stop when i went back home with Farhanah and Izzati. who cares? go ahead, take the Fugly Slut and fuck her to death. i don't mind at all. do whatever he wants coz i don't give a shit about him. he can lek lek one koner sua.
i can't do anything coz he's not mine anymore. wells, just wish him all the best lah ehk.
he's happy with his life and his damn bloody Fugly Slut; and i'm happy with my darling Asyiq. <3>
anyways.....
Monday was suck.
i broke down once i settled down at central square early in the morning. the pain striked again and i couldn't tolerate it no more. all i could do was to cry, tahan-ing with the pain.
Miss Teo was curious why i broke down out of a sudden, and i refused to tell her anything. i was about to pass out during the NA. damnit. then, Miss Teo called me and we walked to the back of central square. i saw some eyes on us with that inquisitive look pasted on their stupid faces. mind your own business lah. and i saw him eyeing me till i sat on the bench. fuck lah, don't you ever care about me kay coz i just couldn't care less about you.
she then brought me to the canteen and got me a cup of hot Milo. we chatted and went into my personal life. nak taknak, i just got to tell her everything about why i cried etcetra.
and i bloodily upchucked later. fuck it up. i really hate this part. sighh.
i seriously don't understand what's up with my system. bloody system.
i skipped my detention. my Maths classes ended quite late, at around 2.45pm. the detention starts at 2pm. heck care sua. but i think i've got to go for In-House Suspension soon. unsure when.
anyways, Shamy gave me this sweet card to me at the end of Maths Focus Group. thanks yeah. =)
at around 3pm, Hazilah and me rushed to the mall and bought a Valentines' present for darling Shaqilah but we didn't get anything for the rest. not even our boyfriends. hee.
i don't know why out of the blue, i just really love Shaqilah alot. not that i'm a lesbian or what, but she's my great best ever bestfriend. she was always there whenever i need someone. she meant alot to me. more than my own boyfriend or ex-boyfriend. man, am i so lucky to have such a great wonderful bestfriend in the universe. love ya lots Shaqilah.
<333>
yesterday was Valentine's Day.it didn't go the way i expected. sighh.
we celebrated during recess when everyone was like gathering here and there. i was high. i gave darling Shaqilah the plushy Pooh pillow and she gave me a voodoo doll. cool. =)
the voodoo doll given by Shaqilah dear.
the plushy stuff to Shaqilah dear from Hazilah and me.
Ain. me.
Anisah. me. Ain.
Ain. me. Anisah.
me. Shamyah.
Ain. Shamy.
Ain. Shaqilah.
a snapshot of me and Shaqilah.
my darling girlfriends.
Faizal Sparkx. me.
i didn't go out and celebrate Vday with dear. i miss him damn much. guess this week we're not meeting again. sighh.
after school, i was supposed to meet Faizal Sparkx but he was late and so, i left him. very bad of me ehk. we didn't wait for Shaqilah and the rest either. so, Ain, Hazilah and me went to Ain's house. wells, there's something we wanted to do there =X but her dad was at home and it was difficult to get the VCDs from her parents' room. heh.
we left Ain all alone (poor her. lol.) wandering around the Marsiling estate. hehe. then, Hazilah and me went to Block 25 and up to the 7th floor. okay, happy now. haha.
last night, Dad brought us out for dinner. i wasn't enjoying the meals. instead, i puked everything that i ate. sighh.
sometimes i just hate myself. why must i be suffering like this? sighh.
my friends had commented lotsa things about me; about my health to be precised. i always look really pale in school, i look really sick, i'm sizzling white sweats instead of colourless sweats etcetra. haha. white sweats? hahahaha.
okay. enough. i hate sappy stories. heee.
wells, i'm chatting with Aziemah right now, and man, i feel so damn honoured that she's losing to a Sec 2 gal, which is ME, about attending RC this Friday. haha. secrets hor. =X find it out yourself this Friday. see ya!
okayys. i guess i better get going now. since mom's not working this evening, guess i'll need her help with the 'somethings'. yeehaaaaa.
April 12 1992
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