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Wednesday, March 15, 2006  

Wednesday 15 March 2006

i'm still mourning and sad over what had happened on Monday but i still had to cheer myself up as i was being forced to go out with my girlfriends today.

i just couldn't get over the feeling. saddened by his love and changes in himself. i just missed the old him but i'll never going to love him anymore cos i have my Asyiq now and Asyiq means so dear to me now. and i really love Asyiq.

so yeah, the Sista & Brader Lups had an outing today. to the swimming pool at Jurong. at first, it started off quite well. we swam for more than 10 laps around the Lazy River and we totally loved the Waves which i almost drowned myself cos the waves were too high for me. and of course, we really loved the slides!

thanks to dear Shaqilah for the rents. =))

we had been swimming in the pool for five hours and my limbs had started to feel weak. i'm afraid i couldn't swim anymore and i would going to drown myself. plus, i've promised Dad that i'll be back home at around 5pm or 6pm. if not, i won't going to get anymore freedom. so, i urged them to go back home but they just seemed couldn't be bothered. sigh.

i was really frustrated that moment that i walked up to the Deep Pool and got the locker key from Hazilah and stomped all the way to the changing room. i actually wanted to leave them but what would they say right. so i waited impatiently with frustration for them to get ready. they took a bloody long time just to get ready and i guess they did this on purpose. bloody hell.

i even followed them to KFC so that we could still go back together. they were walking damn slow that i hurried quickly past them and walked by myself at the carpark and out from the sports centre. Shamyah caught up with me and walked with me all the way to the MRT station. i was thinking about waiting for them there but they were far behind. so, we just took the trains and the journey to Woodlands took 20 minutes only. (rather than taking bus earlier on...hmph! stupid Aiman's idea.)

and finally i was home at around 6+pm.

i realized... i've turned quite dark already. i had sunburn and sun-tanned all over my body. just the bikini outline was left un-sun-tanned. but hey, i wore the swimming costume which had short sleeves and shorts till the thigh (i'm very bad at describing, i know). everyone had noticed i'm darker now. Mom had suspected that i actually went swimming i guess cos she saw my swimming costume hung on the railing in the bathroom. damnit.

i'm being a psycho now i guess.
i'm still saddened over what had happened.
Gosh, why am i so stupid, huh?
stupid idiotic me.
and now, Dear would think i've betrayed him when i'm not.
sigh.

i love you, Asyiq.


 

a lie i didn't have to tell 9:18 PM

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