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Saturday, April 22, 2006  

Saturday 22 April 2006

this week was hectic. so many things, so little time.


i don't know why but my school seems to be prejudice in every single thing. even the teachers and students. why must they be so prejudice? total discrimination. i hate this school.

the teachers especially. they're like... 'pilih kasih'. what the hell?! they're supposed to be fair and square. but heck no, they're prejudice with students. especially students who seem to have 'bad' external appearances (say, piercings etc.). they thought those with 'bad' external appearances are also considered as bad people, bad company.

guess the teachers must open their eyes big big and see PROPERLY without being prejudice! total unfairness! hmph!

see their internal good hearts which smell nice! unlike theirs! sighhh.



my class had this workshop on Internet Safety last Wednesday.

it was a good, nice workshop. not those prosaic types. ha-ha.
so yeah, they mentioned abt meeting online stranges, chattings, online games, blogs etc.
wells, majority of the topics that we discussed had me involving in them such as meeting online strangers etc. and yeah, being prejudice when blogging! hope i have NEVER being prejudice here. ha-ha. as if ehhhh....



so much of being a friend.

okay okay. say whatever you wanna say people but i'm just doing my job as a pautokiak. ha-ha.well, not exactly!

ooooh... the DM and me are friends actually. we always share secrets and stuff. LOL. like bestfriends know! heee.



i was freakingly shocked and worried for Zharif. DM asked me if i know anything about him lately but i answered that he hadn't come to school for four days already and i didn't know why as i don't contact him anymore since the break-up.

guess what the DM told me?
he said Zharif had appendicitis!!!!!!
God God God! i just couldn't believe myself!

the hospital had sent a letter to the school to ask him to go to the hospital urgently so that he can have his surgery ASAP.
there's no wonder why he used to complain to me about him having stomache. stuff like that. but he did tell me that the doctor said it was just an infection when we met over at Polyclinic the other day after my exam.



so yeah, Shaqilah and me had to go cycling with the DM to look for him at his hangout place (which of course i know where it is). but the cycling was postponed to some other day when it was raining heavily outside. dammit.

Shaqilah and me were so excited about going cycling with the DM yesterday afternoon that we skipped RC. not exactly skip but we asked for permission to leave a lil earlier. heeee. =P



i hope Zharif's okay. i'm so worried about him that i almost burst into tears yesterday afternoon. =(




i keep pondering...


why do you have to this to me when i'm being so faithful to you?
why do you have to hurt me over and over again?
what sin have i done to you?
mana letaknya janji-janji kita?


i was so emotionally hurt.
i was so disappointed.


i love you so much and this is the way that i got in return.
i've tried my best to be faithful to you and i did. but never you.


it's no wonder why you've said "don't put high hopes on me...".
if you detest me or detest me loving you, say so. don't hurt me.


i know we're nothing and i don't have the right to prevent you from doing things that you do, but please bear in mind about our vows coz i'm serious about it.


i feel like letting you go but i just can't. i don't want to keep you in my heart and hand when you just want to be free like a TweetyBird which always been kept in its cage.


i was so so so heartbroken.


but afterall, we made it through. we're okay now. yes, i've got to admit that i broke into tears when we talked on the phone but i was just TOO emotionally hurt and disappointed.


and now, i really love my Papa Elmo!!!! hugs and kisses.


last night phone call with Papa Elmo was a disaster.
i had a monster shouting, pulling the telephone line, hitting and lecturing me. bullshit.

but anyways, Papa Elmo asked me about us getting back together and what would i do; accept him or reject him. of course i'll accept right! i love him sooo much and i miss him too.

actually yesterday was supposed to be our one year and one month anniversary but we didn't manage to make it through. but nevermind. let's look ahead and plan the future well. hope we'll stay together forever. =))





i just can't wait till the day we'll be back together.
i'll be waiting darling. kisses.




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Birthday Birthday!!!


the cakes.


a pair of Charles & Keith brown leather high heels from Mom & Dad.


a pair of girlish cute earrings from Huda, my bestie.


the so-called Gucci black leather belt from Abdah, Erni, Hazilah and Shamyah.

adorable Baby Mickey from my future-to-be sister-in-law, Kaq Jannah. (Papa Elmo's sister) kisses.

cuteeeeeeeee Elmo from Papa Elmo A.K.A. Mohd Faizal B Hamzah. hugs and kisses.


more pictures coming up soon. hee. =)
anyways thanks alot guys for the birthday presents!!!!!!! buat susah jerrr. hehe. kisses.


 

a lie i didn't have to tell 7:09 PM

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